Kiss the Rain
wheee.i love my sister!! she's gonna get me a pullover and a bag for no reason. sometimes im quite a sucky little sister, sometimes im good.hahaha.but yeah, i love her for being the bestest big sister ever. whoohOo!=)
im dead tired.seriously, i woke up at 8 and got ready for school coz i needed to get there to rehearsh the dance for the competition so yeah, got to school and i basically ran all the whole school looking for mr m and he was all the while, in the millenium classroom. *frowns* i was tired even before the dancing began, but luckily, the dance turned out good.yayyy!=). it turned out great! yeap! okay short update for a tired girl.im outie.dont hate me coz im beautiful.
had a candy cane at 7:19 PM
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im outraged i mean i just read this girls blog (at least she CLAIMS to be a girl) and it is absolutely degrading how she puts across her ideas in such a low, sad way. i mean, she COULD pass of as a very confident, self-assured person but as you read on, lordy, it's downright rude. it's like racist-egoistical behaviour plastered all over her writing and geez man, grow up. what world do you live in, or rather, what world do you plan on living in. it's sad people like YOU who destroy the hope of having world peace and racial harmony because all they care about is labelling other people different from them. sure, you're a bitch, completely different from me but i dont make fun of your heritage or your culture. i just make fun of well, *grin* you. haahahah. it's obvious why you know. have you even READ your own english . it's just screaming 'mock my crappy english please'
sorry, im really ticked off by her. i know i shouldnt be because she isnt worth my time but im just so annoyed how its because of people like HER that make the chances of world peace drop by another inch every single day. you oughta to open your eyes and look the hell around, it isnt a single race world. snap out of your one tracked mind, time to grow up girlie. or at least find your brain somewhere amongst your over-confidence and your snobbish ways.
dont hate me coz im beautiful. actually i think you have many more reasons as to why you should hate me.
had a candy cane at 7:34 PM
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whooHOo..new start, new beginning. i feel used. michelle's mom just called and i finally told her what i felt and my big sister told her off. yayy! i love my big sister. anyway, michelle: i think feel used by you. and for my own good, imma stay away. im no longer the one you can use as a scapegoat, no longer the one you think is bad influence. im my own girl and you can either treat me like a friend or back off.
anyway, besides feeling stronger and much more independant, i had a pretty good time at the photo thingy. haahha.the makeup guy and the photographer said i could be a model.how cool is that.and like, it's pretty odd coz im not your average small girl.hahaah.anyway, yeah..wheeee.=)
nisa and dawn and sandhya, i thank you guys, for being my real friends and not letting me down...thanks.=)
had a candy cane at 6:21 PM
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another new year. it's pretty cool, i was looking forward to it for ages.well, new yrs eve was a total diaster.almost. went to school, the usual yada yada. it was really annoying though coz shelle didnt do her homework and she got busted by ms malini so she spent the whole beginning of the day doing it while i was just roaming around, sneaking food and stuff. and then we went off to the concert in the hall which REEEKED of fish and cowdung (not literally, the concert just sucked). seriously.LORDY IT WAS NASTY.i know the school put in like tons of effort and stuff but really, it did seem nice at first but yeah, i got pretty tired of the euthusiasm. maybe coz i was being a prick and grouchy but yeah. i doubt many people actually wished the concert didnt end. okay im being an ungrateful brat so yeah, i was just having a reaaaly bad day so anyway, it was dreadfully long but it was nice, some bits of it, like certain dances but the sec 4 chinese society people couldnt dance if their lives depended on it. sheeer torture. i just closed my eyes and wished i was anywhere else but there. so then halfway through, michelle was suddenly called up by mr josef and she went and found out her MOM WAS AT SCHOOL.hahaha. which was a erm, pleasant surprise? *grin* lol and yeah so she left. but i hope her mom doesnt find out about THAT THING.hahaha. i cant elaborate coz everything i say will be used against me. how fun. and like lordy i was reminded of what a jerk eudora's mom was and what a jerk michelles mom is. but its allright.coz i know im gonna be mad whenever i think of how nasty they are but it's allright.coz like my sister said, i get mad only because i care and hell, i dont care if they pass or not. it still bugs, but i'll let go one day.theyre the ones caught up in their perfect world not me so yeah, have a nice life. oh well, it was kinda screwed up after that. *growls* kept going downhill. nisa was upset and mad, and my sister was moody and my mom was highstrung mad and i was just.whatever. yeah.you get the picture.all this crap on new yr's eve. i cant wait til new year.please note how excited i am.
anyway, at reunion dinner, it was allright.my dad was drunk and i hated every second of it when he was being a real jerk and so i jsut kept quiet and read the papers and ate.and talked to my cousins but thats about it.i wasnt in a mood for 'oh wow! this rocked' na-dah.
so yea, and i couldnt pick out what to wear and if you know me, thats just.bad. and i didnt look good, or feel good but hell, it doesnt matter, that was yesterday and today's a new day with no mistakes or bullshit jerkism so yeah, rock on vic.
im outie. dont hate me coz im beautiful.
had a candy cane at 9:38 AM
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I don't know
I pretend I don't care
I see your name
But I don't know you
I hold on to the beginning
I don't want to know
The end
I want an in between
Its impossible
To love the air
To hold the clouds
For real existence
Nothing is left
Even before it began
But I still believe
That this is true
had a candy cane at 7:32 PM
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im feeling calm and alone.even though im not. today at school, we were doing some around the world things where miss lee made us name countries starting with a,b,c,d,e,f,g,h,i,j,k,l. and i wrote belgium for b.i think you should know why and miss lee told us to shout out our countries when the letter was mentioned and me and shelle souted BELGIUM really loud heee so, she chose it! but yeah, that just made me feel more alone.more stupid.more vulnerable.
and im listening to 'i could be the one ' by donna lewis and it's not helping because im feeling so alone. nise, im happy your life is going so well, mine's good but theres something missing.see i really didn't care for much, but now i do. i wont say it out loud, but i really do.
pourqoui.
dont hate me coz im beautiful.
je suis dans l'amour avec vous.
had a candy cane at 6:39 PM
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bonjourrr.. im soo happy! wheee.hahaha.today it started off as a pretty crap day.firstly, miss chia was being a real skep head.like hello?! SHE TOOK MY DAMN MC and went around the school looking for mrs lai and then she couldnt find her so she went around to any teacher trying to tell them my mc's a fake.like BITCH! DONT YOU KNOW HOW TO TRUST PEOPLE U BIG LOSERHEAD.fuckin bitchass. anyway, then she went to miss tan and miss tan kept my mc and tt lame old hag didnt wanna tell me why the freak she took my mc and its even the original one.like HELLO? loser. and then i went to miss tan she said that the date looked a little wrong because the nurse who wrote the mc for me wrote jan 2003 and she cancelled and wrote 2004. which i totally understand can look a lil dubious but gawd.im not ticked about that.im ticked about miss chia like bitch! shes not even in charge of handling cases like that and shes just blatantly picking on me and i KNOW it everyone can see it and im not complaining coz ive done no wrong but im just mad that shes doubting me when im totally 100% innocent.like shes just so gonna make a fool of herself.that oughta teach her that maybe people do have better things to do than get caught twice for forgery? ass hole. fuckin asshole.i hope you rot with ur skinny pale dead body.
anyway, on to something actually worth talking about, i went to take loadzaa photos with michelle! went to melissa too but she went to look for her friends gift. wheeee.it was soo fun and the colors were awesome.whoohOo! c'est tres bon!
nisaa babe! i hope you're getting better.you dont wanna be sickitysick! *hugg* rest loadz.and it rained today! yayy! =) vous est tres heuruex right? heee.yayy! il de volonté amour toujours vous.wheee. ahahah.anyway, yeaa.mucho better now.not mad at old haggedy anymore.
oh well, imma go now...aurevoir. A bientot. dont hate me coz im beautiful.
had a candy cane at 6:15 PM
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voila! c'est tres sexy yea? wheeeee!!! whoopiedeeedoOo!! hahaaha.nisa helped me with the links and all tt badaboom stuff.yayyyy!!1 *jumps around and screammms* okiedokieee.i wuvvv this skin coz its sooo pretty and like so extremely funky and soo RED.hahaah.i like red.its soo sexy and loud and fiery.wahahaha.okay okay.whatever.anyway, thanks nisa!! what would i do without you. and how did u get so good with the html? they didnt even have comps in the sea! (private joke) heee.anyway, je vous aime toujour!
oh well, today was like major bad morning and uber good day.wahahaha.i spilt water all oveer the floor at school today.i know,(gives u the LOOK) it's soo nasty. i had to like clean the FLOOR and i wet some of qi's books by accident.sorry girlie. but yeah alls well. me and szeyen went ooompaaabaloooompaa during english lesson. coz we were laughing our asses of at opractically nothing.hahaha.i know (gives you the LOOK) it's pure insanity. but yeah that cheered me up loadz. and me and shelle were on PINEAPPLE TART EATING spreee.yumyumyumm.cant wait.chinese new years like.so freakin nearrr.i can feel it already.wheeee.the schools all red with banners coz its chinese new yearrrr..wahhhoOo!! *skreams* anyway, yayyers.my dad is back and my big sista will be back soon.family powerrr.miss my sister.*huggg dajie*
anyway..im outie. dont hate me coz im beautiful.
had a candy cane at 9:11 PM
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ICTCHYY
arghhhh..i am sooo freakin ITCHY! omgggg.it iches so bad.ive got these nutcase rashes on my neck and behind my ears and near my cheeks and FUG IT! it's soo nasty.lordy i am disfigured.it isnt funny.*screams in distress* WHY WOULD YOU GO AWAY RASHES? gawd.worse thing is, i dont even know where they came from.no one will understand my pain.sighhh
sigh.stupid rashes.stupid stupid. anyway, my mom spent like 200 bucks on some cream to remove me darn scars coz im so scarred so yeah, it's working.whooHoO.that oughta add some prospective huh.gawd.still isnt helping.im dying of frustration.
anyway, i officially love grace! hahaha.she's so funny.today during PE we were talking about makeup and beauty-yet again- and she takes me seriously! not like some people who just think im an utter ditzhead. because i am not.but anyway, she actually listened and got herself a toner and whooHoO, he skin's totally clearer now and yayy grace, you're gona be gorge on prom dayyy.which is like.ages away.but yeah.haahah.you get what i mean.
*scratching her rashes* anyway, yeahhh.i miss dawn and nisa so bad.i wish they were the same age as me and we were in the same class.we'd be having sooo mucho fun! *hug dawn**hug nise*
oh well, cant wait for cny! all the clothes..all the fooooddd. ive been practically starved from suga. yumyumm.cant wait.
had a candy cane at 4:25 PM
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i am so annoyed.ANNOYED I TELL YOU. annoyed.i cant stop saying that word.annoyed. arghh.everythings so wrong.or maybe im just wrong.wrong state of mind right now.argh.everythings so dreary and so draggy.like eff.
anyway, no ones around, no ones round right now.i dont care.i really dont.go away. leave. oh whatever.even britney cant cheer me up.nor a mag with xtina on the cover.
i am so freakin mood-swinged up.argh.attention. WHO THE FREAK DO I GET ATTENTION FROM. whatever.again.
just fcuk off. leave me but dont go.
had a candy cane at 10:04 PM
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ah.i feel so diffrent now.anyway, ive been bummed with sooo much homework and whooHoo.ive finally completed them.which is tres bon. but yeah.things kinda freaking SUCK at school.i miss dawn coz theres no one to muck arnd with and no one to talk to.i feel so alone at school.its hardly the same.michelle's a stressed up case and shes all homework and assesments. i KNOW she's really concerned about scoring but seriously, she'll have a breakdown sooner or later. anyway. she wont listen to me so yeah.we'll just pray yea. so once again im alone.no dawn. no one to muck arnd with.no one to talk about stuff with.or gossip. because it's hardly the same.
had a candy cane at 3:34 PM
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whooHoO.happy new yearr! so many things happened this year and i KNOW it's cloche but omg, i think i've grown so much.now, i know the TRUE me and i know what i am and im not longer afraid to show it.i mean, who's ever heard of a QUIET vic or a stern vic. GEEEZ. im loud, crazy, weird, short tempaered, fun and im not afraid to show it.whooHoO!
anyway, okay so now, i like britney and i used to hate her coz everyone did and i didnt realize how strong she actually is and i LOVE christina and i mean, who says you cant like britney and christina at the same time. theyre both incredible and you know it.you just wont admit it.heee.=)
and i love being all girly and so what if i like dresses.hahaah.okay not that i wear them loadz but hey, im allowed to dream i have j.lo's wardrobe. anyway, im glad i have whatever i have and im gonna try to get whatever i dont have. hah.that is, in all the positive light.nbot negative.yayyy.
had a candy cane at 3:55 PM
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