Thursday, November 20, 2003

read these lips babe I=D=O=N=T=N=E=E=D=Y=O=U
THANKEWVERYMUCH.
whooosh.i feel so much better.

had a candy cane at 2:26 PM

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

you dont know anything do you? You dont know how im trying to be happy. You dont know how i'm trying to act nonchalent when you dont text. But i'll be just fine. You never know anything and i doubt you want to know. The monster in the cupboard isnt that scary, in fact, she isn't even a monster. She's just this stupid fairy sitting on a dumb toadstool crying her eyes out because you wont even give her a chance to show that she's not what everyone thinks she is. You never know anything because you never ask. If i gave you a chance to ask that crying fairy anything, and i promised she wouldn't lie.what would you ask? i'm thinking along the lines of 'basketball'? The crying fairy wants to be no longer the one who cries anymore. If you won't bother, the why should she bother? she'd sing 'boys dont cry' to you.just to wake you up from dreamland. Things aren't that simple. this isn't disney.

had a candy cane at 9:40 AM

Monday, November 17, 2003

im so mad at you.you're so selfish! Sometimes i wonder why i'd do anything i could to help you out.
anyway, i spoke to nisa just now, and it made me feeel alot better.hahaha.we both thought of how cool it'd be to have someone always there and ive got nisa, and shes got me.=) And i have shelle too..thanks
i love you guys!
=im walking away, i just hope i dont walk back=
[got this ubberrrr long survey thing from nisa]name = vic
piercings = one on each.i want more but im not allowed to
tattoos = nope.but itd be cool though
height = 167cm
shoe size = 10
hair color = erm, some funny brown but now its copper-streaked
length = erm, at my collar?
siblings = 2 sisters
pets = nopeeee

LAST:
movie you rented = i dont rent movies.
movie you bought = full throttle
song you listened to = boys dont cry
song that was stuck in your head = walk away by corrinne may
thing you've downloaded = boys dont cry
cd you bought = stacie orrico
cd you listened to = some cd that siti burned for me
person you've called = nisa.hahah.we talked loadz.we always do.
person that called you = serene.to cancel our nonexistent bowling trip.
tv show you've watched = some chinese weirdo show
person you were thinking of = sandhya
Do ..
you have a bf or gf = nope.
you have a crush on someone = i do but im about to un-do that crush
you wish you could live somewhere else = yeah..anywhere but here.
you think about suicide = sometimes, but i love myself too much to do that.
you believe in online dating = yes, and it isnt stupid, unlike wht some people think
you want more piercings = my ears..
you want more tattoos = its cool.but no i wouldnt get one
you drink = no..
you do drugs = no
you smoke = dont ever plan on doing that
you like cleaning = its okay..
you like roller coasters = hah.im a scaredy cat..
you write in cursive or print = print.
you carry a donor card = i would if i had one.

For or Against..
teenage smoking = against.
doing drugs = against.
premarital sex =against.
driving drunk = against.
soap operas = against
tv show = for.ahhaah.id die without tv.

the best...
thing in the world = love
thing to collect = photos
colors of all time = pink, purple, white
thing to do on a rainy day = look at the ominous clouds and smile.
feeling in the world = feeling that nothings gonna get you down.

Have you...
ever cried over a guy = yeah.this one guy.he still makes me cry.
ever lied to someone = yeah
ever been in a fist fight =not really.but id love to punch some people.

What...
Perfume do you use = chance by chanel
shoes do you wear = my pink and black nikes.
are you scared of = being unwanted and all alone.and beind misunderstood
Number...
of continents I have lived in? asia.one.
of drugs taken illegally? nope
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? 3
of people I consider my enemies? erm, one or 2. real snobs.
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? none.but soon it'd be splashed all over the front pages.
of scars on my body? erm, alot.eczema.
Have you ever...
Fallen for your best friend? no, is bgf counted? i guess it is.so yeah.
Made out with JUST a friend? nope.
Been in love? i thought i was.i dont know anymore.
Cheated on someone? no

Who was the last person...
You touched? erm..i hit my cousin on her arm
You talked to? nisa.i miss her already.
You hugged? grumpy bear.

Have you/are you/do you....
Considered a life of crime? no.
Considered being a hooker? no.
Considered being a pimp? no.
Are you psycho? a lil doofy and a lil bonkers.
Split personalities? erm not really..
Schizophrenic?doubt so
Obsessive compulsive? not really..
Panic? im panicky.
Anxiety? yes.
Depressed? a little.
Obsessed with hate? no.
Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? no.
Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? noo..ouch.

Are you...
Understanding: yeah.i try to be.
Open-minded: yeah.
Interesting: what? it doesnt matter now..but yeah i guess
Hungry: yeah.
Friendly: sometimes too much.it might scare you, but i just wanna be friends.
Childish: half and half.
Healthy:i hope i am.but i like to have gastric.it makes me feel alive.
Difficult: half.
Thirsty: no.
Responsible: if i want to be, i can.
Sad: very. but again, it doesnt matter..
Happy: can i be happy and sad at the same time?
Trusting: too much.sometimes i give my heart away and get it back broken.
Talkative: i never shut up.even during mime.
Lonely: i feel alone now.
Own a webcam? nope.
Current Clothes: my pooh tee and my victoria secrets pj bottoms.
Current Mood: montony
Current Taste: emptiness..
Current Hair: behind my ears.
Current Annoyance: my lonliness..
Current Smell: the scent of montony.
Current thing you ought to be doing: being happy.
Current Book: my momw ont get me a new bk to read.
Current DVD In Player: nothing.
Current Refreshment: nothing.
Current Worry: if i have the strength to walk away like i said i would.
Current Crush: someone who makes me cry and laugh at the same time

On Dating....
Long or short hair? short
Dark or blond hair? dark.blonde would be finee.
Tall or short? tall.gotta be taller than me
Ms. Sensitive or Ms. Funny? half and half.
Good boy or bad boy? half and half.
Dark or light eyes? anything wouldnt matter
Pierced or no? not.
On preferences....
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? hot chocolate
McDonalds or Burger King? burger king!
Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? i dont need perfection.but i need both.
Sweet or sour? sweet.
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? roootbeer.with icecream.
Sappy/action/comedy/horror? romantic comedies
Ocean or Pool? ocean
Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? nacho.
With or without ice-cubes?ice cubes.
Shine or rain? both.
Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? spring.
Vanilla or Chocolate? vanilla.
Gloves or mittens? mittens.
Eyes open or closed? closed when i kiss. open to see the world.
Fly or breathe under water? fly.
Bunk-bed or waterbed? waterbed..
Chewing gum or hard candy? erm.sweeets r fine..
Motor boat or sailboat? motor.

10 people you want to meet(in random order)
1. my grandma
2. him
3. christina aguilera
4. joe hahn
5. my big sister
6. a record producer
7. heath ledger
8. julia stiles
9.drew barrymore
10. justin timberlake

9 things you wear everyday
1. undies
2. earrings.
3. my watch
4. my smile
5. clothesss
6. shoes.
7. hair
8.i dont know
9. i dont knowww

8 of your favorite foods
1.naan
2. bread
3. fried rice
4. chocolate
5. stuffed chicken
6. icecream
7. potato
8. fried chicken

7 of your closest friends (at random)
1. nisa
2. shelle
3. kev
4. sandhya
5. dawn
6. alex
7. katie

6 of your favorite shows
1. brothers garcia
2. thats so raven
3. mtv made
4. as told by ginger
5. rocket power
6. charmed

5 things in your room
1. my bed
2. all my stuffed toys
3. my radio
4. alll my clothesss
5. my memories.

4 things you ate today
1. potato with pork
2. choc almond cookie
3. love letters
4. watermelon

3 things you could not live without
1. my family, friends
2. music
3. shopping.

2 books you recently read
1.the secret dreamworld of a shoppaholic
2. the shoppaholic abroad

1 thing you said today
1. im giving up on him.

had a candy cane at 9:21 PM